petition to Yeshe Goenpo

crushed, shaken, hooked
how I feel,
past year of waiting, resting
sitting, lying, trusting
swimming in the depths
I’m tired,
be with me!
why was I born a Pisces?
this form realm a living hell
how can one be simultaneously:
in anguish, restless, depressed,
aching, gutted?
my patience is dissolving,
my faith is floundering
hold my hand, I beg you
wrap my watery chrysalis
in your vast heart

Subtle Astrological Aspects – Listen deeply

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This is a post for people who have at least a little bit of astrological knowledge.  If you don’t have that, you can read through it and at least have a little laugh.

Ever wonder about those little known astrological aspects?  Like the semi-square, semi-sextile or the sesquiquadrate?  Did you even know that last one was a word?  <chuckle chuckle grin grin>

This is a post about possibilities when we slow down enough to listen and notice.  There are astrological aspects which most people do not notice – or they experience them and just go about their busy-ness.  Recently, I have been slowing down more, intentionally.  This is tough to do if we live a typical lifestyle, as there are many responsibilities and countless distractions.  First a little more about my story, and then into the astrology.

If you are a first time reader, welcome, and I will share a little background info.  I am a Tibetan Buddhist practitioner which means I attend an annual teaching retreat where Tibetan lamas (monks and teachers) discuss and teach on Buddhist theories, meditation and philosophies.  Having been a practitioner for several years now, and an avid supporter of the Tibetan Meditation Center (where they host many such retreats), I have developed a deeper relationship with several of the teachers there.

I have been fairly active over the past eight weeks or so, organizing for their Spring Retreat and then helping to organize for a high lama’s teachings in my home town of Charlottesville.  Actually “active” is not the right word.  I would say “overwhelmed and barely able to catch up with myself” are closer to the truth.  Typically, when I help to organize an event, I say I can do one thing but end up agreeing to take on more and eventually, at least in the past, I would get frustrated and realize, “Hey!  I have too much on my plate!”  So to be more accurate, I have been wired and tense as I accumulated responsibilities.

Prior to that, I have been finishing my undergraduate work at the University of Virginia in addition to working as a self-employed healing facilitator offering Craniosacral Bodywork sessions and Spiritual Astrology interpretations.  Therefore, since 2006, I have not really had much down time – school in the fall and spring, winter retreat, and work like hell over the summer.  The word vacation is foreign to me, since the last time I went on one was in the previous century…  Yowsers!  So when Drupon Thinley Ningpo, a Tibetan lama and one of my heart teachers, told me, when I solicited advice, “You need to slow down.  You need to relax.”  Being confused at first, I asked for clarification, not understanding that all he wants me to do is rest down.  He said, “just relax, that’s all.”  Well, that sounds easy…

But as I mentioned above, there are numerous distractions and like most people, I need to pay my bills.  But I have been purposefully resting down as of late (the past few weeks anyway) and I intend to continue.  As I slow down, I am realizing there are numerous astrology aspects which occur, but in the past I could never have noticed them as I was just barely able to finish the next thing on my unending to-do list.

So what actually occurs when we experience a semi-square?  Do we ever feel positive effects from a semi-sextile aspect?  And for those of you wondering, I will also answer the questions: what is a semi-square?  semi-sextile? sesquiquadrate?  🙂

In geocentric astrology, when someone is born, their birth chart or natal horoscope is a snap shot of the solar system from a top-down, Earth-centered view.  And of course, the planets continue moving as the days go by, and this continual planetary motion is known in astrology as Transits (because the “transiting planets” continue to circle the Sun and aspect planets in the natal horoscope).  It is these aspects that I am concerned about for the purposes of this post.

In astrology, there are Hard Aspects – the major hard aspects are the Conjunction (depending on the planets involved), the Square and the Opposition.  And there are Soft Aspects – the majors ones are the Trine and Sextile (and occasionally the Conjunction when beneficial planets are involved).  It is these major aspects that most people are concerned about because they indicate significant tension, benefits, strife, opportunities, relationships, conflict, support, etc.  It is the major aspects that are hard to miss – especially the Hard Aspects, the Square and Opposition reflect events in our lives that tend to catalyze change and transformation, the beginning, middle and end of cycles.

Now I’m not trying to say that I know about them.  Good grief!  I am a Leo Rising, but I think I have gotten a grip on my arrogance and pride.  However, I do have a little bit of experience as a Professional Astrologer, so I will share what little I know below.

So, now that I have bored you to death and written way too much in the way of an introduction…  If one can slow down enough, they can notice all of the aspects occurring between their Natal charts and the Transiting Planets.  The Square (90 degrees, one fourth of the chart) is an aspect which reflects tension and challenge in someone’s life – the square can indicate resistance and stubbornness because, seriously, who wants to change?  We all have expectations about what our lives are supposed to look like, and who wants to go against the grain and transform themselves?  Well, sometimes we don’t have a choice.  Impermanence is a fact – things change.  Sorry  🙂

Well the semi-square (45 degrees) is a minor version of its major relative.  It is one eighth of the chart.  The semi-square indicates behavior that could get us in trouble if we continue to perpetuate it.  It indicates habits which are in the process of forming.  Depending on which planets are in aspect, these habits can be detrimental or positive for our healthy growth and continued resting in alignment.

The Sextile aspect (60 degrees) is a just barely a major aspect.  It is one sixth of the chart.  Some astrologers consider it to be a minor aspect because having many Hard Aspects occurring at the same time can sharply reduce the events reflected by Sextiles.  In general, the Sextile tends toward opportunities and benefits, but of course you need to see which planets are in aspect and which astrological houses are involved to become clear of the meaning.  Some sextiles, for instance involving Jupiter or Venus are almost always positive, where other sextiles, perhaps involving Mars or Pluto can be a little trying or steamy, but still positive in the long run.

The semi-sextile (30 degrees) is even more subtle than the Sextile.  Which means that it is the least discernible of all.  I would say that if you have several semi-sextiles operating at the same time, then you might notice.  It is one twelfth of the chart.

Finally, the sesquiquadrate aspect (135 degrees) is an odd aspect that occurs when you add the Square plus the Semi-square (90 and 45 degrees respectively).  It is a little more than one third of the chart and it is difficult to discern unless you really search for it.  Again, in my experience, I would say that you need to keenly seek out the planets involved in it and then be aware of what they indicate when in aspect.  In other words, don’t put too much effort into locating these!  See below.

I plan to wrap this up shortly, by the way…  One example first, in addition to a little advice about these subtle aspects.

Regarding the subtle aspects, if you lead a busy life, forget about them.  They are subtle and you need several of them operating simultaneously to notice.  The only one which might carry some weight is the semi-square.  It is fairly easy to locate – 45 degrees is a full sign plus a half.  In my experience, none of these subtle aspects reflects major, life-changing influences.  However, if you notice yourself drifting off into a deluded state, it might be good to see if Neptune is making a semi-square with Mercury or another personal planet.

Generally, you will notice these subtle aspects the most when the planets involved reflect something which you have not resolved in your subconscious (psycho-spiritual) process.  For instance, in my chart, I have Uranus in a Square aspect to Venus in my Natal Chart – which means I am constantly walking around with a dynamic, magnetic, charming yet bohemian (Uranus) way of relating (and sense of style), especially regarding loved ones (Venus) – I need space and I will often surprise even people who know me with some unpredictable behavior (Uranus).

So if and when transiting Uranus makes a minor aspect to my Natal Venus, it can indicate a stimulation of these energies – whether from within my psyche or from other people without (which still originate within me – e.g. who am I attracting and why?).  If Uranus makes a Major Aspect to my Natal Venus look out – then there would be some events in my life (reflected of course, not caused, by the aspect) that would seem to be unavoidable.  The only thing I can control is my reaction to them.

Well guess what.  Recently I noticed, transiting Uranus is presently making a semi-square to Venus, and due to transiting Uranus’ slow movement, it has been sitting in this relationship to Venus for several months.  So that explains a bizarre and unexpected relationship faux pas which I recently experienced.

Yes, sometimes if you experience a curious event and you do not see “evidence” for it in your major transiting or progressed aspects, then it might be good to look at what is occurring locally or on more of a minor level.  Then, and only then, is it helpful.  And remember, astrology simply provides understanding about ourselves and others.  It is a tool and nothing more, nothing less.  Don’t spend too much time with it, but having a bigoted, prejudiced attitude toward it is not good either.

Thanks for reading and have a good day.

Let me know if you are interested in having your chart done (receiving an Interpretation).

Khenchen Konchog Gyaltsen in C’ville

Khenchen taught in Charlottesville on the topic of his relatively recent text, “Prescriptions and Proscriptions.”  It was a beautiful weekend hosted at the Unity Church.  He taught both afternoons and then offered refuge on Sunday.  The first day he went through the preliminaries and the Hinayana theories – for instance, practice good moral ethics and you will be happier.  Then on the second day he went through the Vajrayana section and Mahamudra – very potent and I, yet again, learned a lot.  Actually, even if I had heard something again, hearing it from Khenchen is such a solid reminder and I find it very validating.

As I mention in a previous post, it was Khenchen who taught (me) that it truly is possible to become a Buddha in this lifetime.  It is not just a cliche or a pie in the sky wish – through hard work and effort and putting the lamas advice into practice, it is quite do-able.

About 25 to 30 people showed up on both days, with Saturday having one group and then many new faces showed up on Sunday.  I am very grateful that Khenchen blessed us with his presence.  As the event was winding down, I made announcements, thanking people, etc.  I also requested Khenchen to please come back and teach in C’ville.  He stopped me saying, “you know there are several great teachers at TMC now and that it would be better to invite them down.”  I think he is unfortunately feeling the affects of his chronic fatigue – he is tired.  So thank you thank you thank you for blessing us by coming to Charlottesville.  It might not happen again in this lifetime.

July wish

to transcend or to stick with this curious existence…

I yearn for the trees, to be alone in the woods,

to discover a life of substance, not these false, vapid appearances.

A life worth living, full of pure vitality, pulsing.

I yearn for another glimpse into reality, to ride the waves found within, to live fully.

I am tired of my old habits, formed or nurtured in this stale, artificial environment.

I yearn to come back to my heart, to feel alive, to breathe fully,

to be fearless, to speak from my core, unshakably.

May I be clear kind and most importantly honest with all.

I yearn to escape Mara’s clutches, to complete my practice without distraction, for the benefit of all beings.

May it be so.

Dalai Jefferson?

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This is a very interesting story that I just heard recently.  However I want to add this little detail.

As a disclaimer, I heard these anecdotes from a friend whom I deeply respect and who is a dedicated Buddhist practitioner, so he has no reason to embellish or exaggerate any tales.  With that said however, what I am about to mention is definitely second hand information (from someone other than the subject).  It struck me as being profound and I do not know what to make of this info, except to share it and see what others think.

When the Dalai Lama first came to the United States back in 1979, he visited Washington D.C. among other places.  At that time, he was taken to the Jefferson Memorial.  Of course, there is a statue of Thomas Jefferson there, and upon seeing it, His Holiness was heard to proclaim, “I think that was me,” as he indicated the statue.

Jeffrey Hopkins, or another Buddhist scholar was present at this encounter, and he, having knowledge on the subject, said, “But Your Holiness, the Dalai Lamas were already established at that time.”  Subtext: that could not be you, because you were already in existence elsewhere.

The Dalai Lama replied, “that would not be a problem.”  [Indicating that, as a highly realized spiritual being, known as a Bodhisattva, having multiple emanations is not inconceivable, and in fact, might very well be possible.]

The Dalai Lama is known to be a realized Bodhisattva.  And authentic Bodhisattvas are known to be able to emanate multiple “copies” of themselves, or in this case, separate, distinct, unique individuals.  And we know Jefferson was a very fascinating and intriguing individual.  Coincidence?  Probably.

As someone who has lived in or around Charlottesville Virginia most of my life (24 years now), I am fascinated by this exchange.  This is because, as a Charlottesvillian, one can barely move around town without seeing some kind of sign or monument to Thomas Jefferson (as this was his home town).  And, as a student at the University of Virginia, one is not able to attend class for a week without hearing the professors (the “s” is emphasized!) weave Jefferson and his quotes or inventions or philosophy into their lectures.  Therefore, this story is most poignant to me.

I personally have been to Monticello, Jefferson’s primary residence, which is just outside of Charlottesville, and I have seen some of his inventions first hand – the man was obviously a genius and at his time, he may have known more about the world (specific temporal world knowledge) than anyone could possibly know today.  It seems like he was interested in everything – from politics to gardening to machinery to running an estate to cooking and wine making and everything in between.  But I had never heard the above story previously, or the stories I am about to relate.

The following story is about John F. Kennedy.  He arranged to have a dinner with many of the living Nobel Peace Laureates at the White House.  Apparently the President said something like this (I am paraphrasing): “This group is the most intelligent to grace this dining room, at least since Thomas Jefferson dined alone.”

Jefferson apparently wrote his own version of the bible – he took Jesus’ words from the gospels and made a big paste up.  He omitted the miracles and was left with what he called The Life and Morals of Jesus of Nazareth. This is in print off and on – not too difficult to find (including Wikipedia).

When Thomas Jefferson wrote the first draft of the Declaration of Independence, he argued for the abolishing of slavery.  This apparently did not go over well with the southern states, and as a result, he was forced to revise the Declaration into its present form.  I have heard that Jefferson argued against slavery as he got older – which seems peculiar considering his being in possession of them?

Well that is all I have for now.  I hope you enjoyed this little discussion and read something novel.  Have a good day!

Post Dharma Hangover – Clear Bliss, No Chaser

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Not to sound overly arrogant…  Despite the fact that I am a bit prideful…  I am suffering from an over-flow of inner bliss.  No, in general this situation would not be considered a burden.  However, I know that this too shall pass, and as a result, I am aware that this blissful delight is temporary.  Awwww!  Also I realize that posting this information will make it pass more swiftly.

I have just been a part of the team sponsoring a high Tibetan lama (spiritual teacher) in Charlottesville.  Thankfully there is a lot of support and assistance, especially when things started to melt down for me, which has been happening with greater and greater frequency recently 😦

There is a book entitled, “After The Ecstasy, The Laundry.”  (Jack Kornfield)  Perhaps that is what I will discover shortly.  But let me tell you my story.

I first took refuge with Khenchen Rinpoche, Konchog Gyaltsen in 2006 at my first Tibetan retreat.  He is the first lama I received extensive teachings from, and at present, it feels like I have a closer connection to him than I do to my root lama (Drupon Thinley Ningpo), which could easily have to do with Drupon-la and I’s slight language barrier (Khenchen speaks clear English, where Drupon’s is improving but is presently a work in progress).  I suspect this will change, once I spend more time with the Drupon, and learn to speak Tibetan.  And let down my guard around him.  Details!

Fast forward through numerous Buddhist retreats, personal practice, struggling through academia and personal process work to the summer of 2010, now.  In the past six weeks, I helped organize the Spring Retreat in Maryland at the Tibetan Meditation Center and then I took on the task of organizing these recent teachings here in C’ville.  A part of me is still saying, “You crazy man!  Don’t take on anything of this magnitude again!  Especially when you have less than two weeks to get everything accomplished.”  However, what I would presently reply with is, “Support is always there.  You just have to ask.”  I was / am always surprised by the way things mysteriously work out.  Plus!  I feel that I stretched and pulled myself to greater capacity.  I am noticing my ability to speak my mind, my needs and feelings just flowing with ease.  Including and especially with people who I had contraction around previously – YAY!  Awesome.  Something positive is occurring…  I think…  Time is valuable – be efficient, but above all, relax…  This is the most important part about time being valuable – I need time in order to rest and relax and rejuvenate.

So yes, the teachings were incredible, like usual.  Khenchen’s English is very comprehensible, and he often uses words that I have not learned yet, meaning I have to pay attention to what he is saying (no day dreaming or half-hearted listening).  Of course, he is also great at pointing things out in layman’s terms, like, “If you plant the seeds for poison, whether or not you have understanding, poison is going to grow.  Where as, if you plant the seeds for medicine, whether or not you have understanding, medicine is going to grow.”  Awesome.

To top it off, in the course of a few hours, I went from feeling hazy about several topics to now feeling clearer and more focused.  This includes where I am to live, what I am to do about work (you know, manifesting money) and how soon I need to worry about finishing school.  So I now feel like I know much more than I did yesterday.  Is that possible?  Or is it just the novelty of being with Khenchen, which might wear off here in a little while?  I must admit that stretching myself as the primary organizer comes with a few little perks – like getting to speak directly to Rinpoche (an enlightened being) about substantive matters, etc.

Anyway, he gave intense, potent instructions to those of us in the Charlottesville Ratnashri Sangha, advice which I feel is way beyond my capacity, he said, “You [C’ville Sangha] need to continue to grow and practice until all sentient beings attain unsurpassed Enlightenment.”  Is that possible?  How long will that take?  OMG!  I don’t want to think about that, however I now feel I must practice more on a regular basis.  Surprise surprise!  But now there is a good reason.  So that answers the question about where to live – he asked me where we would practice now that someone important to the Sangha is moving.  I told him the same place.  Which means I am staying at my present location because I am going to be the responsible one.  Wow.  I just signed up for something else…  Ugh…  But at least it was for an Enlightened Being (wisdom being).  If this paragraph does not make any sense to you, don’t worry, I can barely make heads or tails of it, but I am leaving it in here for who-knows-what-reason.

He also told me in an impromptu interview that I should job hunt to solve my financial situation (as opposed to doing practice and hoping bodywork clients manifest in greater quantities).  I love how he is against “magical thinking,” and instead he suggests we take practical steps.  I need that advice.  🙂  He said I need to let go of expectations – maybe my obstacles will clear up soon, maybe they will take a while and maybe they will continue indefinitely.  But don’t worry – just let go – it will be okay no matter what.  [This next section is my interpretation of what he said:]  We have Buddha-nature, so be confident, sooner or later, if we continue to practice Dharma sincerely and maintain moral ethics and virtuous conduct, then we will create the causes to realize the nature of our mind-as-such (become enlightened).  And the law of causality is one of those indestructible laws of nature – there cannot be a result without a cause.  So long story short, that solves my working question.  Time to start hunting.  <Imagine Kirby on the prowl – for a job.  While you are at it, please send some good job-finding juju my way.  I want something dynamic and fun which uses my many talents, oh and preferably works with children.>

The only thing I am a bit hesitant about is when to finish school.  Completing it is a must.  It is just a matter of when.  Well it is okay – again, don’t worry, be happy.  I gained some clarity about a couple of pressing worries.  So just be happy, don’t worry!  It is my intention to finish my undergraduate work at UVA, despite feeling that it is pointless, worthless and that I am wasting my time being stuck amongst incredibly intelligent, yet immature 20 year olds…  I am so not a “typical undergrad.”  Wow!  It’s nice to get that out “on paper.”

Good good good.  More to follow, especially when I get home and put the pictures on here.  Thanks for reading!

Dharma (and Lamas) in Charlottesville

In this post: an update about my life, a description of an ordinary day with Tibetan Lamas and info about Dharma teachings in Charlottesville.

So the past two weeks have been a whirlwind!  I can barely remember what I did two days ago, let alone last week, as the days have been so full and I have been carrying loads of responsibility.  Two weeks ago, I returned from the Tibetan Meditation Spring Retreat with the mission to get the ball rolling for Khenchen Rinpoche, Konchog Gyaltsen’s teachings to occur in Charlottesville.  This was on top of preparing to take courses in the immersion-filled, Tibetan Summer Language programs.

Thankfully, as I now have quality support around me and as I rest in that, I can glance back and observe how much we as a Sangha (and I) have accomplished.  I do not mean to sound arrogant or self-aggrandizing – but seriously I got a lot done, stretched myself and sat in the discomfort of growing pains (not so bad once you get used to them).  We have probably reached a thousand people to let them know about the teachings – via posters, email, advertising, etc.

Three Tibetan Lamas went down to Virginia Beach with Rinpoche and then they all came up to C’ville on Monday.  After running numerous errands on a hot day, I greeted the Lamas upon their return.  Then I was asked shortly thereafter, “Hey, you are no longer in the Summer Program and you are not working…  Wanna drive two of them back to Maryland?”  And because I wanted a break, and the chance to practice Tibetan, I jumped at the opportunity!  So I got to spend a day with Lama Gyaltsen and Khenpo (Umze) Chophel.

We had some great laughs on the way up to the Lama House.  They asked to stop a couple times, which I was happy to support, purposely not rushing and taking our time.  They had been given bus money in case someone like me did not step forward, so they used a little of that money to pay for my gas and to buy me a little food – it is always curious seeing people who are authentically hyper-generous – they competed to see who could pay first on several stops.

Once we arrived back at their home, I was instructed to rest and relax.  Just drink some tea and “hlueh hlueh chai” (relax!).  I was amazed at the Lamas productivity – they made momo’s (Tibetan dumplings) from scratch, stuffed them with meat and veggies and had them cooked within 45 minutes.  Yummy!  I love momos!  We continued to speak Tibetan – or actually I got to practice my comprehension as Khenpo Chophel speaks very clear Central Dialect (U-Tsang).  My speaking is out of practice and rusty but I am very happy with my listening and comprehension skills.

I helped them out a little with some English questions and then we went to bed.  I got to stay in the guest room, which for me was a first.  I also explored a little – Khenpo Chophel is staying in Khenchen’s room, and there is a room upstairs for His Holiness, the Drikung Kyabgon (who will be coming in August).  This is in addition to the Drupon’s room and Lamas Gyaltsen’s room (five bedrooms in the house).  It is a large house, with a semi finished basement, where the large shrine room is for PDL retreats.  In this house, I think I counted six or seven shrines – depending on your definition.

I awoke at 4 am.  I don’t know why – perhaps it was the Lama House energy (many shrines), or the fact that I was in a new bed, or none of the above, but I could not go back to sleep.  Instead I chanted mantras – a cloudy, afflicted mind attempting to have faith and devotion.  I did a few prostrations (bows) until my elbow started aching and then I went back to mantras – refuge, Achi, and the Four Thoughts.  It was very nice having completed a fair amount of practice before 6 am!  <grin grin>  Then I ate breakfast at 7.  Lama Gyaltsen was up by 5 or 6, I know because he went for an early morning walk plus I heard the dishes being put away before I came downstairs.

He completed some more chores and then was out the door to meet a friend for some errands around town by 8 am.  Khenpo Chophel was up soon thereafter (or he emerged after his personal practice).  He is so kind – he showed me some Dharma (literary) Tibetan words, like Samten – concentration / meditation / clear, focused mind; Shinay – similar to calm abiding or clear insight; Tharchin – perfection; Tsultrim – ethics / moral conduct; etc etc.  It was great!  He saw that I knew how to write in Tibetan block print and cursive (U-chen and Kyook) and he gave me some much needed pointers.

I asked Khenpo why they had to come back early, as we had been ready to put them up in Charlottesville.  He said that he had many consecrations to do – people had been bringing statues by off and on for the past few weeks.  It probably did not help that I also asked him to fill and consecrate a statue of mine.  He taught me the word for consecrate – it means to bless permanently.  I love how Tibetan is full of compound words – if you know say a thousand root Tibetan words, I bet you can make ten thousand “new” words.

Then I rested, had lunch with Khenpo and then was on my way home.  A 24 hour blip to Maryland and back.  Lovely indeed.

Khenchen Rinpoche, Konchog Gyaltsen will be teaching this weekend (June 26th and 27th) at the Charlottesville Unity Church – both afternoons from 2 to 5 pm.  He is teaching on his text entitled, “Prescriptions and Proscriptions” – formerly known as Permissions and Prohibitions.  It should be a fantastic weekend.

Sleepless in Gemini

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to you who live and breathe loving-kindness and compassion, I pay homage

may this eclipse of my light and the eclipse of all beings come to an end

joy comes from the most mysterious places – knocking on stranger’s doors?

and then having them open other doors for you, not knowing your name

who are you?  who are you who makes me giggle so?  who am I?

breathing deep, I speak my truth, breathing deep, I am temporarily free

breathing in, I am liberated, breathing out, I let go

burning my candle at multiple ends, eventually may I say:

“what candle?”  for now, though, just rest in wonder and curiosity

the best of Gemini, the best of energy manifesting in time and space

the best of union – form and appearance – one

the best of false perceptions…

the best of emptiness…

may we all be in alignment with the sound of suchness

Khenchen Rinpoche, Konchog Gyaltsen is coming to Charlottesville

Hello Dear Readers and beyond,

I am very excited (and the Charlottesville Ratnashri Sangha, of which I am a humble member, is as well) to be assisting in the sponsoring of Khenchen Konchog Gyaltsen in C’ville.  If you live anywhere nearby, these are rare teachings by an authentic, realized Lama.  Plus he requested a large public audience – would not want to disappoint an enlightened being would we?

So, he is teaching from a text he composed entitled “Permissions and Prohibitions.”  He will be at the Unity Church in Charlottesville (off Hydraulic Road) on June 26th and 27th, teachings go from 2 to 5 pm both days – just afternoon teachings.  The text is a beautiful yet pith instruction on the entire Buddhist path from the three trainings up to Mahamudra and Buddhahood.  Registration is requested, and there is a suggested donation of $35 per day.

If you want more info, submit a comment here and I will email you back.

Thanks for reading.

Spring Retreat 2010 – Bodhicitta

5/30/10 – One of my housemates said, “Khenchen is the real McCoy.”  I wholeheartedly agree.

In my previous post I mention how Khenchen answered one of the audience’s questions by saying, “Yes, you should compete with your co-workers….  You should compete to see if you can have more Bodhicitta than they.”  Perfect answer.

I did a little practice before retreat, so it is very difficult to suppress my true feelings.  Therefore, this is another main theme of this retreat – my true feelings.  Developing clarity, articulating boundaries, breathing through irritation and then letting go just a little more.

5/31/10 – Drove the owner of the house to the airport as he was heading off to Tibet.  Yes!  Sweet!  I am so happy to support that.  I just hope he is taking lots of pictures as we speak.

I cooked the first couple of meals for the four of us – a delicious vegetarian soup and then scrambled eggs for breakfast.  Today however, the favor was returned as one of the guys baked omelets (he could not find a large frying pan).  They turned out well in spite of our pan-less-ness.

Today I am feeling a strange energy.  A charge, a buzzing, an angst.  I interpret it as a desire to practice – maybe I am accurately discerning it and maybe I am just stuck in an inner story.  I don’t know.  But it is present nonetheless.

When we arrived and throughout the first ten days, the Mountain Laurels were just resplendent – blooming everywhere.  We were in a garden on top of the mountain, attending precious teachings.

The words, “Paying Attention” came up over and over again in our all-male retreat house.  In fact I bet they were mentioned several times a day.  Slowing down and paying attention – it can save you from tragedy and carelessness.  Yep yep.

I did some practice and, on top of the buzzing energy I was feeling previously, afterward it was tough to come down off my natural high.  Ugh.