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Hello Dear Readers,

This spring has been a bit of an astrological headache for me. Some days I have been disheartened to be certain. As a matter of fact, there was one day in early May that every transiting planet was making a hard aspect to my Natal Chart (thank goodness for my spiritual practice – the only adverse effect I experienced besides a lot of extra irritability was dealing with a traffic violation). These “difficult” aspects or one might say, learning experiences, include Saturn squaring my Natal Pluto / Moon, Jupiter square my Natal Sun conjunct Neptune and more… Ugh!

And now the Transiting personal planets are beginning to enter my 12th house meaning it is a time of more incubation, inside time and continuing to allow the hatching of more presence, awareness and stability. But assuredly not a time of pushing outwardly to get more clients! (Tr. Mars is currently in my 12th, with the Moon entering it temporarily for its monthly 3 day journey, then Mercury enters soon, followed by the Sun and Venus is not too far behind! Should be quite an interesting two months…)

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Needless to say, I am anxious to get my business (bodywork, healing facilitation) off the ground. So far, it has been growing in fits and starts, but since March, I am not getting many new clients (that is the trouble with being a good healing facilitator – we turn over clients every 2-3 months as they start to get better! I jest of course about this being trouble.) I returned from the amazing Taoist Massage School over a year ago which you may want to go back and read the posts for – it was a magical experience! I was there from late Jan – late April 2018. And I was all juiced up from doing Qigong and other forms of Chi cultivation for four to five hours / day… yes you read that correctly! So of course I pushed hard for new clients and was all geared up for learning new massage techniques.

It is funny though how when Saturn comes along and makes a hard aspect to Pluto, or in my case to both Pluto and the Moon, we can suddenly start to second guess ourselves as obstacles begin to show up that weren’t there before. In my case, these are mostly inner obstacles. I am not 100% certain what to focus on in my practice (I only offer about 10 modalities…) I don’t know if / when / what I should teach – I do want to teach soon, but just not sure what. Many questions and few answers right now. I am struggling to rest patiently and confidently in “I-don’t-know” mind.

Which is why I sat earlier and wrote out a new intention for my meditation. I want to clear my mind, settle my nervous system and purify karmic obscurations AND asked, “Where should I put my energy?” and “How can I best be of service to sentient beings and rest in ease-full abundance?”

I was surprised (not that I should be by this point) to get an answer in the form of a vision pretty quick. I saw the space around my clients and around my appointments being vacant, almost void like. And I was swiftly reminded of one of my aspirations for 2019 – that is to Fill My Container and to quickly Patch Any Leaks in it. So that is my next mission…

More practice, more inner orientation (at least for another 5-6 weeks) and more weeding out thoughts / conduct that take me out of having an open loving heart. It is a lifelong process – especially for those of us with deeply ingrained habits and patterns of dissociative behavior (in my case, it took the form of computer games and reading / writing fantasy stories). Slowly leaning into support, learning more about the nervous system, resting down, slowing down, spending more time in nature, eating well, etc. Doing the inner weeding is worth it though!

Most years I typically dread the summer time. And I am a Leo Rising who loves the sun and swimming and going to the beach, etc! I believe this sense of dread has to do with the annual parade of personal planets through my 12th house (which always starts around late June if not sooner – at least for Sun, Mercury and Venus). As I increase my inner stability, increase inner light and repair / release more and more shadow material, then this time will only get easier. Thank goodness that change is guaranteed! 🙂

Thank you for reading!

KM

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I would recommend reading Part I first, as this post is an extension of the former post – “Buddhist view of the astrological 12th house.”  And again, due to my poor, incomplete understanding, I apologize ahead of time for any mistakes or confusing sections. Also, I added a section at the end explaining how all this 12th house shadow material can be worked through, giving us more creativity, intuition and joy – it is not all trouble with the 12th! 🙂

When we break out of the conditioned habitual tendencies of thinking of ourselves first; when we start to serve others sincerely – just for the sake of benefiting them (not out of fame, gain or praise or any other distortions), then we start to purify our negative karma and therefore purify our bad habits.  It is possible – but it takes time.  We should not start out on the spiritual path thinking we will become completely and perfectly happy in one year, or even five years, because that is absolutely unrealistic.  Think about it – we have spent millions and millions of lives – countless years perpetuating many challenging habits – to try to break an deeply ingrained chain like that, in a short period of time, is almost impossible.  Therefore have patience, be kind to yourself along the way – take some breaks to integrate, make mistakes make repair but keep practicing, keep analyzing, keep being gentle to your self and others.

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Then we start to unravel the 12th house.  We don’t have to be Buddhist – when we have been sincerely practicing Bodhicitta for many years, or even for many lifetimes, then we can start to move toward unsurpassed, perfect, complete, precious enlightenment – to gain an understanding of the ultimate nature of reality.  But until that time, we are caught in these cycles of dissatisfaction.  One of my heart teachers, Julie Henderson, the creator of Zapchen Somatics constantly reminds me, when I use the word, “addiction,” that this word is not kind – it has a rather negative connotation.  Rather, I have habits which perpetuate my suffering and dissatisfaction – I have taken refuge in behavior that will not lead to enlightenment – therefore I should call these habits an “insufficient refuge” or “temporary compensations.”  I whole-heartedly agree but I have to catch myself – I have a habit of being hard on myself and reverting back to calling them “addictions.”

Update Nov. 2017: the more I learn about the autonomic nervous system, the more addictive behavior makes sense. For instance, when a situation is too overwhelming, we slip out of possible social nervous system down into sympathetic areas – and we revert to fight flight or freeze (wary freeze is different from below). Then if that situation remains too overwhelming and does not change for the better, we can slip even further down the nervous system tree into parasympathetic freeze or shock. When this occurs, we often compensate by dissociating, disembodying or checking out / numbness. And here is the important part: the body starts to produce endorphins as a last defense against dying. Endorphins make the mind feel some bliss. It is as if, “well I’m about to be eaten by a lion, might as well bliss out ahead of time!” But today, in this modern world, this evolutionary defense is a detriment. Because for those of us who have felt that parasympathetic shock and accompanying endorphins, we unconsciously yearn to get back to that state. If we move toward health a little, but then have some of our overwhelm history get triggered or activated, then we will be tempted to do some behavior (or substance) which gets us back to dissociative numbness with the accompanying endorphins. This might explain a little about addictive behavior.

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It is these habits or conditioned patterns which work against us, and show up through the 12th house.  When we are reactive and self-oriented, the 12th house might show some afflictions (challenging aspects to planets within it).  But our frequency and our understanding determines how these afflictions manifest – I have seen clients with Saturn and Pluto in their 12th house be completely happy and content through serving others.  Sure they did not have a lot of spare time for themselves, their lifestyles may not be for everyone, but they themselves were very content.  Who can honestly say that about most areas of their life?  “Yeah, overall I’m quite happy.”  Overall are you content?  Maybe some of us.  I’m not sure about my answer.

I have also seen people with loaded 12th houses be very self-oriented, in afflicted ways.  Petty theft, lying, personality disorders, the ability (and possibly the enjoyment) of pushing other people’s buttons, etc have all been reflected in 12th house issues – say the Moon in the 12th squaring Neptune (they might use those psychic, intuitive abilities in a distorted, manipulative manner).  Or as in the case of one of my high school friends – he had his Sagittarian Sun, Venus and Mercury in the 12th, with a challenging aspect to them, and he was extremely oriented toward self gain – it was almost as if he saw the world as an enormous personal challenge and he had to outwit and conquer it.  Ugh!  [From my personal experience of having worked with people who have birth trauma to work through, this could have been the case here.]  Just relax, work to improve your lifestyle and ethical behavior, accept your karma and start leading a virtuous lifestyle – things will change eventually.  Cause and effect is a universal law.  If we put the conditions in place for positive outcomes, they will come.

For me personally, at present, Mars is retrograde and transiting my 12th house.  This is in addition to Uranus transiting my Natal Sun which is in Pisces which is associated with the 12th house.  Recently, I have been very tempted – I want to fall back on old habits which I know in my heart will lead to perpetuating the conditions for further suffering, but the pleasure and the comfort of these patterns is so tempting – I desperately want to revert to my old behavior.  But luckily my practice is such that I am now able to say, “this is my mind moving through space.  This too shall pass.”  I observe my process and I am able to breathe through most of these retrograde thoughts.  And, most importantly, I have surrounded myself with wise spiritual friends who gently point out what I am experiencing, what they notice and remind me of the vows I have taken.  And I have a long way to go.

The 12th house shows us our flaws and defects.  When major planets transit the 12th house, we can be tempted and we will probably fall back on sources of insufficient refuge and temporary compensations (substance abuse, deception and/or indulging in eating lots of comfort foods are easy examples).  We might revert back to some behavior which we thought we gave up years ago.  We might “retrograde” along our path for a few weeks or months.  Especially if we tend to self-isolate.  Without spiritual friends and a loving, supportive community, people who tell us the truth – with wisdom and true compassion – no matter how it might make us feel – we can easily step off our path.

In conclusion, I would not recommend having fear toward the 12th house.  Rather, slowly build up wise habits and constantly aspire to develop good qualities.  Realize that it is okay to take some steps backwards – but build in resources (teachers, spiritual friends, tools for quality self care, daily meditation practice which leads towards a heart filled with Bodhicitta, etc) which will prevent you from backtracking for too long.  Be kind to yourself – we are human and we make mistakes – how else do we learn?  And we can still love ourselves.  Bring failure and success onto the path.  Be aware of a desire to constantly “get it right.”  This is unrealistic and an impossible goal to achieve.  Through diligent practice and analysis, we can gain an understanding of the world around us, as well as an understanding of our inner machinations.  Work to leave the world a better place than how you found it, practice patience and acceptance – of yourself and others.  Then, I feel, we are on a path toward lasting happiness and on our way out of 12th house challenges.

As Garchen Rinpoche says, and I paraphrase, “benefiting self leads to suffering, benefiting others leads to happiness.  With compassion toward others, we can melt the ice of self-grasping from our hearts.”

Update Nov 2017: Wow – I really give the 12th house a bad name don’t I? There are some great boons to having planets in the 12th as well. Especially if we work through some of the unconscious material that it is indicating. For instance, people with planets in the 12th can be extremely accurate judges of character. Their gut feeling about someone is usually right on. Sometimes, if we have Neptune in the 12th, or Moon making a major aspect to Neptune from the 12th, we might be able to see auras or we might have precognitive dreams – seeing bits and pieces about the future. A lot of psychic energy is stored in the 12th house. When we liberate the shadow material – honor our history, resolve old misunderstandings and trauma, bring our little wounded parts along with us on our healing journey, then that psychic energy which was going toward our shadow stuff becomes liberated and we have more psychic capacity, more creativity and more joy as a result! Wow!

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November 2017 Update: Some (maybe most) of my thoughts on this topic have shifted as I work with Pre- and Perinatal Psychology (PPN) and birth process work. Seeing how working with preverbal material is so unconscious until we have an extremely safe, slow, gentle, compassionate, appropriate, held container, I would definitely equate 12th house energy with the birth process – literally and figuratively. I am going to write a new blog post about it shortly. Nov 2017. I wrote this present post 8 years ago, before I met my PPN teachers. You should read my new upcoming post to clarify how we can liberate our shadow energy which initially shows up in the 12th house. We are not stuck, the 12th house is not a fatalistic doom and gloom zone. 🙂

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According to traditional astrologers, there is a feeling of gloom and doom about the 12th house, no matter how you package it.  However, I would argue that this is only partially accurate, and with a dedicated spiritual practice, this dim forecast is actually quite transcendable.  It truly depends on a person’s frequency and how willing / flexible they are to work with their shadow material. In ancient, Hellenistic astrology, the 12th house was known as the “Evil Daemon” and planets tenanting it received significant debilitation.  Only the cold, dry, stern, efficient disciplinarian of Saturn “enjoyed” being in that house.  This shows that there has been a stigma associated with the 12th house for thousands of years.

The 12th house is associated with Neptune and Pisces, and as such, it has had such billing as the house of imprisonment – being imprisoned by our addictive or escapist tendencies, imprisoned by our worries and fears (usually irrational), working against ourselves, being stuck in confusing, deluded patterns, etc.  It can be a house of deceptive energy, deceiving ourselves as well as others.  However, it has some positive traits, or “ways out” of its confining boundaries.  Planets in the 12th house can add heightened sensitivity to the native – physical, emotional, psychic, etc: it can certainly add increased intuition and dream guidance.  And it generally rings true that service is a good remedy to challenging configurations within the 12th – service to the community, or working within institutions such as hospitals, prisons, schools, mental institutions, etc.  The 12th house also tends to increase our powers of imagination and creativity.  And ultimately, the 12th house is where we discover the true source of power – humble conduct and wise universal understanding and compassion for all beings.

I would argue however, that without being born with incredible positive karma, and without having some form of diligent service or if we do not maintain some form of daily  / weekly spiritual practice, the 12th house’s deep, dark secrets and reserves of confusing energy can certainly be a cause for concern.  Personally, I see the 12th house as being that which is most hidden – you could say it is the Akashic Records – the “Divine book” that stores all of our thoughts, words and deeds throughout all of our lives.  It is the deep wells of karmic unconscious energy, waiting for the causes and conditions to come about to manifest.  I know this sounds like a fatalistic tone, but continue reading to get a better understanding and to see that is not my intention.

In Buddhism, one of the predominant theories is that we take a human incarnation in a world that is fraught with confusion and ignorance.  This confusion leads us to become attached to pleasure and averse to painful or challenging experiences (and people).  That is how we develop close friends and loved ones as well as hatred toward enemies.  As we go through life with this underlying confusion, we are never fully satisfied – in fact we generally want what we don’t have and once we acquire the object of our desire, we become dissatisfied with it.  So ignorance is the root cause of this suffering or dissatisfaction, and the attachment and aversion that arise from ignorance also create suffering and further dissatisfaction.

Our mind becomes separated from the knowledge and realization that we are completely interdependent with the rest of the world – if someone else suffers, we also suffer (whether immediately or down the road).  If someone (close to us) is happy, then we generally benefit (again – it might be an immediate gratification or a trickle down effect).  It is this fundamental confusion – that we are completely independent, separate entities that gives rise to conduct which maintains these cycles of dissatisfaction and suffering.  For instance, we continually grasp at the concept of an independent self, and we cycle through the patterns of defending this “self,” over and over again.  If we fully understand that we are intertwined with everyone else on the planet and we orient toward true compassion for others, then we can be content with the way things are.  We can think on a larger scale – aspiring and acting for others’ benefit will actually increase our well-being – whether in a “I’ll-scratch-your-back-if-you-scratch-mine” sort of manner or due to the positive karma and merit created by doing virtuous deeds.  When we aspire to and act for the benefit of others, out of loving-kindness, wisdom and compassion, without a personal agenda, this is known as Bodhicitta – the mind that desires complete enlightenment for the benefit of all sentient beings.

However, most of this world has confusion, along with the resulting grasping and frustration of not having what we want.  It is this underlying confusion that is built into the 12th house in the astrology chart.  If we keep in mind that the Natal Chart is merely a template of our ego-structure, and if we start to transcend the ego using a qualified spiritual path (a path that leads to a more open, lovingly-kind heart), then we start to transcend the challenges which an afflicted 12th house might represent.  But, due to the fact that most of us, myself included, are not there yet, we suffer from constant dissatisfaction and confusion.  We are never completely happy and content – any temporary happiness or pleasure we encounter is always conditionally based.

It is this confusion and grasping for situations which we think will bring us happiness – pleasure, fame, gain and praise – that cause us to be stuck in this cycle – for eons and eons.  When we our frequency is very dense (when we have not cultivated Bodhicitta) and we are bouncing from situation to situation, reacting and posturing for our own benefit, that is when the 12th house jumps up and nips us in the bud.  The 12th house speaks of every frequency along these lines – do we work for the benefit of others and serve our community, or do we constantly blame others for the “problems” we encounter?  Do we understand that any happiness or suffering we encounter is actually our karma manifesting – whether positive or negative?  Are we completely honest with ourselves?  Do we know what our agendas are at all levels?  Do we practice generosity and patience simply to benefit others – sincerely, unstained by personal gain?

I will continue this thread in the next post, and give more concrete examples from my clients and personal experiences.

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