back in Virginia, many emotions

Now that I am back in Virginia, I am noticing many reactions to not being in a vast wilderness of long lakes, towering mountains, not-so-distant glaciers and amazing people (of British Columbia, Canada).

I am reminded of one young man I met at the co-op in Nelson (BC) who said that he was there from Quebec.  I asked him if he was vacationing and he said “No, I am here building a life.”  He also had a very loyal black labrador retriever who waited outside the store and then followed him, without his needing to look back.  There is a simplicity about most of the Canadiens I met, a refreshing, leisurely, calmer simplicity.

Many of the people I know and many of the people I meet here in Charlottesville Virginia are distracted, and I mean heavily distracted from their true selves.  Whether it is a Pokemon game on their phones, spending hours on Facebook (and now that I have been back 24 hours, I am starting to become guilty of this), busily talking about American football formations for long spells or by watching every FC Barcelona (soccer) game they can get their eyes on.  Heck, I have a list of shows I have watched (on Netflix or Hulu) in the past year, and I have watched at least 1 whole season of 6 or 7 different shows!  Talk about leaning away from my authentic self!

I feel like I have been waiting for something.  Of course, nothing is going to move or change me from the outside without some impetus and impulse from within.  But I feel as if my trip to Canada was that impulse. I desperately wanted things to change, but I didn’t know how to do it previously.  And I’m now afraid I might fall back into that pattern.  There were a number of obstacles which arose to block my making it to Canada, but I’m so glad I persevered through my inner resistance!

So how I can stay more heart-centered here?  With many responsibilities pulling and tugging at me, how can I get out in nature more often and easily?  How can I maintain open-hearted connections with friends here in Va?  How can I integrate all the juicy material we covered at the intensive?

These are all vital questions that I need to find answers for.

In the meantime, I am attempting to practice the Dharma – nourishing my heart and soul.  I am starting to ask for connections with others here who are connected to the PPN work.

But I miss the land and the mountains and the clean water and the non-venomous wildlife and the lack of ticks.  I miss the touch of the cool morning air as I step out of the outdoor shower and rainy mist that said goodbye to us as we parted ways.  I miss being able to step out of my tent, take 20 steps and be on a logging road which leads to dozens of serene hiking trails.  I miss being around people who are so outdoor oriented – when winter is harsh and piled high with snow, I suspect we tend to appreciate the summer that much more!

Thanks for reading my meandering words!

~KM

Published by Kirby Moore

Kirby Moore is a healing facilitator based in the beautiful rolling hills of Charlottesville, Virginia. He does sessions in-person and long distance via Skype and Zoom, working with Spiritual Astrology, Somatic Experiencing, Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy and Birth Process Work. His healing work is informed by fifteen years of meditation and Qigong practice. He works with client's intentions and deepest longings to attain clear, tangible results. Contact him for more info at (email): kirby [at] mkirbymoore [dot] com

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