I am back from Canada now. I have only been home and awake for a few hours. I will describe the workshop (intensive) more in depth in the coming days. But when I was walking our dog, I had a little insight.
This may just be review for most of you, but I found it helpful for myself. And it is this:
During a potent and purgative and coherent retreat or workshop like I attended, we are really given the chance to open our hearts. I was also doing a little bit of meditation during it, so I suspect my heart had the opportunity to stretch open even a bit more.
When my heart opens, I can include more beings in it with compassion and acceptance and I can also be more patient with more typically “triggering” types of reactions and comments from others. So with an open heart, I can rest back and allow people’s stuff to be their own and not affect me so much.
But then I come home. I am out of the beautiful energetic field which Ken and Myrna have spent years establishing. Their space up in the mountains above Nelson Canada is abundantly full of Kuan Yin statues and home-grown vegetables and dozens of fruit trees and many berries. Myrna has hosted dozens of process workshops there, creating a mandala of healing potency.
And here I am at home. The airport experiences did not help much either – dry, impersonal, no heart, barely any warmth (literally and figuratively!). Now I have to work that much harder to keep my heart open. Will I be able to maintain what I attained up there? Maybe not. But I can definitely prevent my heart from closing up.
What kind of activities does my heart enjoy? What makes it feel like closing down? What do I want to foster in myself? What is my intention for the next few months?
We are maintaining contact with members from the group which will be helpful. We can keep each other honest and on-track. We spoke powerful intentions about what kind of support we will need back in our regular lives, we talked about what that is going to look like and we discussed what we might change in our lives to allow our intentions the space to come to being.
Good stuff! Yummy indeed!
For me personally, I am working to find a balance between down-time / integration time for at least the next month. More naps (at least 5 days / week), some time soaking in the bath tub, spending time in nature if / when possible, walking the dog, and most importantly, STAYING SLOW. I recognize my tendency to want to dive into new projects and longer and longer to-do lists.
Now I have several lists: one is “absolutely necessary items”, the next is “if there is time” and the third list doesn’t matter, because after that second list, I won’t have any time whatsoever!! Especially after I get in my nap and down time.
I know meditation is on that first list – to keep my heart open and tolerant and patient and compassionate. Doing things with my girlfriend is also going to be very important considering we haven’t seen each other in 6 weeks or more! (But she comes back on Wednesday)
Thanks for reading.