So this has to be the most full spring retreat I have ever done. Possibly even more full than either of the Mani Drupchens I did up at TMC six years ago! Many good things are happening and I rejoice.
I got to treat another baby that I met up here. He was induced so I think he has more work to do, plus it was past his bed time (impromptu treatments are difficult to get “right”) but I know that his mother benefited tremendously! Sometimes it is more of a Mommy treatment than a baby treatment, but that will also benefit the infant.
I also got to give a massage to a Lama. I’m not going to name names but I am very fortunate to create a deeper connection with a very realized being who is beyond attachment and aversion, and who excels at piercing through ignorance and confusion.
What is most interesting though is, while the Lama was my “client” for 50 minutes, he was still my Lama. And once he got off the table, he was resting in equanimity as usual, just resting in neutrality. But my mind was wondering why we weren’t making much of a connection. I obviously have much work to do around attachment. I am attached to whether or not he likes me. Is it okay to attempt to please your Lama? I think it is, but just don’t have any expectations for him liking you back any more than he loves all sentient beings.
So that is where I am at. I gave two treatments today and I feel pretty good. Good enough to start studying more Pharmacology! 🙂
I am heading back to Charlottesville tomorrow. But I will definitely miss Frederick Maryland. I have definitely missed being at TMC. It feels like home. It has so much potential that is somehow not being used fully. Having Khenchen Rinpoche here as well helps, but he has already moved on. He is talking about slowing down and retiring (teaching and traveling take their toll and he is in his 70’s). He deserves a good long rest. But he is definitely not going to retire in Maryland or Virginia 😦
Receiving teachings from Khenchen (or any qualified Lama) is one of the greatest blessings I have ever received though. He is an overflowing swollen waterfall of Dharma and wisdom and compassion and I want to continue to drink up those healing waters for years to come.
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