Remember how I said I was going to blog every day for a month? … Yeah, well a few days in and I’ve missed my timeline 😦
At least I have a viable excuse! I have been working and due to my co-workers being on vacation, I have been working longer hours and busier shifts, meaning I need more time to recover.
As for the title, I sometimes wonder if I’m in an abusive relationship with my job. I am a waiter at an upscale resort in the Charlottesville area (which is all I will say! [and all I can say due to a certain form I signed]) and from time to time, we are short staffed or unprepared for the mad rush of bodies we get through our door. Of course, most waiters who are comfortable being stressed and strained for hours on end (and making money hands over fist) would love this situation. Well, considering I am someone who cares first and foremost about practicing self-care and having a few moments from time to time to check in with my mind and body and say, “Hey body, how ya doin’ ?” So I struggle through these busy shifts and from time to time my manager buys me dinner or saves a cheese cake for me as a treat…
It almost sounds like someone who kicks you and then later says, “Oh, I’m sorry, here are some flowers…” Just kidding! It’s not that bad!
I threw the I Ching about my situation earlier tonight and it said that I need to stick with it for the short term foreseeable future. The plus side is that I get to attend class in the morning, I do get one guaranteed day off per week to go to my lab (class), and from time to time, I can make relatively easy money. Oh and I don’t take any work home with me.
So I guess I need to stop whining and get on with class and eventually I will graduate out of this occasionally roller-coaster-stressful job.
As an aside, I think most waiters get through these stressful times using various chemicals – coffee, 5-hour energy shots, other drugs… But that is not where I am at. So I think I am now looking at saying “No.” more often. There are hundreds of details to take care of in a given shift, and once I cross my threshold (like if I have not eaten in over 6 hours for instance), I will just slow down and eventually become the weakest link on the team. I’m tired.
Anyone feel like sponsoring a semester of me taking classes? 🙂 🙂 I could be your embodiment coach in exchange.
Just a thought!
Thanks for reading (my griping)!