In this post: Happy Birthday Blog! An update on my current psycho-spiritual process and upcoming retreats and opportunities.
The blog is now two years old and I wish it many happy solar returns! In the past month, we crossed the 6,500 views mark – Yay! And there was much rejoicing… Hopefully these posts are providing some form of benefit or information for people – entertainment at the very least.
As for my update, I am still incubating (more on this in a second) and presently working at the Boar’s Head – a beautiful, quiet, traditional golf resort / club in Charlottesville. According to the guidance I am receiving, I am to maintain a low profile – humility is the essence of the time for me. Very few people at work know much of what I am “into.”
As for the internal shifts and transformations that I am witnessing and experiencing, the incubation from above, some days it feels like I am being torn apart from within. Julie Henderson, one of my heart teachers, mentions that there are several potent shifts we can make as human beings – from “easiest” to most challenging these are 1) changing our mental outlook and attitudes, even though this still requires a powerful intention and dedication to it; 2) changing our behavior toward regular, spontaneous compassion, wisdom and generosity; 3) transforming our body (heart) such that old reactions and stored cellular memories (traumas, frozen tissue, etc) are re-organized and brought into loving light. I am now very confident that my process falls into the last category.
Since 2006, the year I started Ngondro practice (Buddhist preliminaries – challenging yet basic in the Vajrayana path – they include prostrations, refuge, purification, mandala offering accumulations, etc), I have been letting go of ego structures and holding patterns at what, to most people, might be an alarming rate. And yet it seems like I have just begun the process of embodiment and extricating the subtle afflictions lurking in the deep shadows. Therefore I have no idea how long this transformation will take, or what I will look like when the “I” I knew ceases to exist. But I am curious. (Yay!)
As I am now working full time, I would like to attend many more retreats than I am able. However I plan to attend a few days of the TMC’s Mani Drupchen in December and I am about to start arrangements to go to California to attend a Zapchen workshop with Julie in March. Muy Bueno!! I’m excited about this possibility. I am planning to skip the Kalachakra Initiation in Washington D.C. in July with His Holiness the Dalai Lama, despite it being so close to home. I am not able to keep up with my present assignments (from Tibetan Lamas and other spiritual teachers) so why add another more potent practice to the list? There is always Spring Retreat at the TMC as well. So good good good.
If I don’t write as often, just know that I am discovering alignment in novel places (at work) and seeking sincere spiritual nurturing to constantly be with me. Yum. May you know the same.