Hello Dear Ones,
Here are some intentions I plan to hold while in Hawaii (go back and view the previous three posts for more on my trip, thoughts, and ruminating).
While I have a ton of maturing and growth yet to do, I have already completed a good amount. In order to keep in touch with humility and groundedness, I will mix in some of my flaws and foibles into these posts.
While I am in Hawaii, I want to know who I am. Yes, I am a solid healing facilitator. Yes, I teach astrology, nervous system repair, and somatic tools to move toward well-being. But that is fairly easy for me. I still want to go deeper. What is beneath undiagnosable symptoms? Maybe stuck emotions, maybe stuck energy, maybe stuck karma (can these things be separated?). What is underneath karma? Who am I on an even more profound level?
While I am in Hawaii, I want to hold deep respect for the land, for the people, for the local spirits, and for the ancestors. I intend to hold deep respect for the old ways. For causes and results that are unknown to most mundane, mainstream folk.
I ask permission from these beings to be here, to practice the Dharma, to refine myself and improve as a human being. May you be happy and pacified, please help to keep me safe as I travel parts of this journey “alone.” With gratitude and appreciation, may I share the land with you? I will make offerings to those unseen and unknown.
After discovering who I am on a deeper level, then I want to know why I am here. Yes, you’d think I know the answer to these questions already. Maybe I do, more likely though, I waver and waffle, going back and forth between knowing my path and feeling uncertainty and dismay. Why am I here?
Then, I do want to be in a sacred partnership soon. I am seeking a true priestess, a goddess in human form. So what do I need to do to prepare myself, to prepare my container to be a solid, stable, dynamic, inspiring partner? Wisdom beings, can you help to prepare me for a beautiful, co-creating, equitable, sacred partnership?
May I lean into inner resources and knowing such that I don’t need to rely on, or react to outer circumstances. Or at least not be swayed by them. If I truly feel light and love running through my circuits, then I have everything I need in that moment. Can I humbly take that knowing out into the world with solid boundaries and equanimity? Can I open to receive, to trust a little more, to lean into support while I am on this trip (and going forward)?
May I remember that many people are having a really hard time. Once life happens, we get swept up in events, swept away by to-do lists and deadlines and loved ones’ needs. At this point, how can I possibly work on myself? How can I conduct authentic spiritual practice? May I maintain a grateful, humble, curious heart in spite of everything! If we go back far enough, everyone has been my mother, my child. May I never depart from holding wise compassion for all of them in my heart.
Thank you for putting up with my musings!