As my readers may know, I recently returned from an edifying and serene and resourcing trip to Canada – British Columbia – where I learned more about pre- and perinatal psychology and birth process work.
During that training, my heart expanded along with my perceived capacity to get stuff done when I came back into the real world. On the last day of the training, we sat in our groups of 3 (plus a TA) and discussed what our plans were to get support once we got back into our regular lives (outside of idyllic British Columbian mountain settings).
I recorded my plans and intentions and needs around support. And that list, which I guess one could call a brain storming of sorts, was long and now that I listen to it again, it was quite overambitious.
I need to integrate the work (the emotional process work that I did myself and that I witnessed). That is first and foremost. Somehow though, I came back home with an expanded heart and I started filling up every morning of my calendar. And then most evenings were spent at work (I work in a restaurant to pay the bills. Although if I had my way, I would prefer to see more bodywork clients and not have to work. The benefits are nice though.)
We are supposed to keep in touch with people from the training, but if I am filling up my time with connections up there, then my plate is still too full. Even if it is full of good stuff.
I have given multiple bodywork sessions since being back, including to a Mom and baby who was born via C-section. And I had to pause the next day and say, “Do I need to treat myself for shock?” (I had also seen a bear while hiking by myself not too far from Charlottesville. A surprising if not shocking experience of sorts.) And the answer was a “yes.” So I did that. I lay down. I had a heated pad on my kidneys. I drank some warm tea.
Now that Mercury is out of retrograde, I am going even slower. Maybe now my integration can actually begin. What am I doing differently? First of all, I am not actively calling others to schedule anything. If clients call me, that is great. Then I say yes and schedule them. But this week I have two days off and on one of them I’m not scheduling a damned thing. And on the other day off, I am going hiking with a friend of mine. (after the bear incident, I am thinking I might hike with other people more often.)
My schedule is still pretty full. I am assisting in a Polyvagal class one morning a week – where I get to drop into a deep state of resourced potency and more clarity and occasionally I receive a free treatment from one of the students in the class. I also have to give bodywork but this can also be resourcing. Sometimes I feel I too receive healing (or at least I am forced to rest in alignment) when I give bodywork.
But outside of treating the occasional baby and the weekly client, I plan to take it easy for the month of October. Of course, if you want to chat about your astrology chart, look me up – email is kirby [at] mkirbymoore [dot] com I am looking forward to doing some astrology in the next few weeks.
I was surprising everyone up in Canada. I mentioned that I started first with astrology (back in 2003) – before I got into bodywork. So of course several people wanted me to peek at their charts. I was just saying the first thing off the top of my head about the various aspects and configurations I was seeing and it seemed pretty spot on. My intuition is definitely sharper at the moment.
The moral of the story is that I am slowing down more than I have been the past couple weeks. I am happy to see 2 or 3 bodywork clients a week (and I need to schedule down time for me after I see them). And I am happy to start doing astrology interpretations again. I have taken a 6 month hiatus for some reason – haven’t done many charts in a while. But it was great fun to chat about astrology up in Canada, so I see it happening more here. And I need a designated day off with nothing on my docket. Finding a balance between doing just enough versus doing too much is not easy for me. My intention is more being and less doing. I am curious about what that looks like.
Wish me luck (in slowing down)!
Thanks for reading,
~km
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