Feeling a bit off

I’m not exactly sure why, but I have been feeling a little off over the past couple of days.

Backing off from nursing school has been tough on me.  It was a apart of my identity, although fortunately my identity is quite complex and multifaceted.  It is tough though to think that I might have to be working in the restaurant business for an extra year as a result.  No thank you!  Hopefully I can get a job at a doctor’s office after I finish the semester on administering medications (and many other vital nursing duties).

I think I need to do more practice.  Spiritual practice that is.  Sitting on my cushion practice.  Previously, during nursing school, I had to abandon some formal sitting because I simply didn’t have time or energy.  But in that case, the momentum of study and testing and clinical learning was a structure to build my life and time around.  It propelled me.  Now, I am without that structure, that foundation.  I need to rediscover a new structure.

I am finding that I am very sensitive to other people’s attitudes and energy at work.  Spiritual practice – Buddhist practice in my case is one antidote to this hypersensitivity.  And so is yoga and Zapchen somatics.  No matter what I choose, I need to do some daily practice.

Fortunately I have 3 days off in a row, so I can build some momentum.

Wish me well!  I wish you well.

Om Mani Padme Hung.