I’m not exactly sure why, but I have been feeling a little off over the past couple of days.
Backing off from nursing school has been tough on me. It was a apart of my identity, although fortunately my identity is quite complex and multifaceted. It is tough though to think that I might have to be working in the restaurant business for an extra year as a result. No thank you! Hopefully I can get a job at a doctor’s office after I finish the semester on administering medications (and many other vital nursing duties).
I think I need to do more practice. Spiritual practice that is. Sitting on my cushion practice. Previously, during nursing school, I had to abandon some formal sitting because I simply didn’t have time or energy. But in that case, the momentum of study and testing and clinical learning was a structure to build my life and time around. It propelled me. Now, I am without that structure, that foundation. I need to rediscover a new structure.
I am finding that I am very sensitive to other people’s attitudes and energy at work. Spiritual practice – Buddhist practice in my case is one antidote to this hypersensitivity. And so is yoga and Zapchen somatics. No matter what I choose, I need to do some daily practice.
Fortunately I have 3 days off in a row, so I can build some momentum.
Wish me well! I wish you well.
Om Mani Padme Hung.