slowly discovering my purpose on this planet

I am a 36 year old caucasian college-educated male from a middle class family.  And I am so much more than this.  It took me at least 27 years to see and then another three years to realize that I am a spiritual being having a human experience.  And I am still unpacking what exactly that means.

In this post, I am intending to stay focused on my “profession.”  I have that in quotes because I do many things.  So I am slowly discovering what I am meant to give back to humanity, in the form of what I do for the energy known as money, a.k.a. my profession.

I have explored many complimentary medicine-type avenues – I have certificates in training in several modalities – Reiki, Biodynamic Cranio Sacral therapy, BodyTalk, trauma resolution, visceral manipulation and more.  I have studied Spiritual Astrology since 2003 (Western Astrology through a karmic lens), so that informs what I do.  Most of these modalities come easy to me – I’m not trying to brag, but rather, I want to explain that I’m not sure if I have found “the one” modality which ties many of my interests together AND challenges me enough to enjoy it and to continue growing in its knowledge.

Having laid the foundation of my complimentary (read alternative) therapeutic background, enter my three years spent at the University of Virginia acquiring my bachelor’s degree in Psychology.  This is a very conservative and traditional college, very research oriented and empirically driven.  So it goes without saying that I had to keep most of my interests to myself as I went through classes.  One might guess that I would not enjoy my time at UVa, but you would be wrong   🙂    Because I felt it was a form of mind training to be there.  For my intuitive, I-love-what-comes-easy-to-me mind, stepping outside my comfort zone was just what I needed.

I gained one of the most important tools a functional human being can have in their repertoire – a critical, analyzing, empirically-based mindset.  I learned what is true science and what is opinion.  I learned that occasionally our intuition is not accurate – but rather it is fear or an imagination gone wild.  Therefore when you say that a study proves something, and it is peer reviewed and it is replicable, then you might be onto something.  The best part is that I got to blend my already blessed intuitive and emotionally-aware mind with a critical understanding.  It might sound strange that it took three years to learn (or unlearn poor habits), but maybe that is typical.

And now I don’t exactly know what is next.  I stand on my next precipice.  Perhaps my next step will be a short step downhill toward an easier destination or maybe I will be challenged nicely and head upwards.  I have applied to nursing school.  And I am already loving the classes I have had to take – Microbiology and Anatomy and Physiology.  The more I learn about the human body, the more I am reminded of a metaphor.

As an astrologer, I sit on the sidelines and spout wise sounding advice.  And if I have experience in the particular area someone is asking about, then it is actual wisdom.  Sometimes I might channel a bit of wisdom from another source.  But nonetheless, I am (or was) on the sidelines.

Now as a potential health care practitioner, I will be licensed with a specific scope of practice, with serious responsibilities and duties (and inherent consequences).  As opposed to sitting near a lake and describing it for someone, without ever having swam in it, now I am dipping in my feet and I am about to take the plunge.  And it is awesome (and of course not knowing exactly where I am heading or how I will blend complimentary modalities into what I will do is a bit disconcerting, but it is apart of the unfolding mystery of life).

As I know more, I will keep you post.  Thanks for visiting!