5/30/10 – One of my housemates said, “Khenchen is the real McCoy.” I wholeheartedly agree.
In my previous post I mention how Khenchen answered one of the audience’s questions by saying, “Yes, you should compete with your co-workers…. You should compete to see if you can have more Bodhicitta than they.” Perfect answer.
I did a little practice before retreat, so it is very difficult to suppress my true feelings. Therefore, this is another main theme of this retreat – my true feelings. Developing clarity, articulating boundaries, breathing through irritation and then letting go just a little more.
5/31/10 – Drove the owner of the house to the airport as he was heading off to Tibet. Yes! Sweet! I am so happy to support that. I just hope he is taking lots of pictures as we speak.
I cooked the first couple of meals for the four of us – a delicious vegetarian soup and then scrambled eggs for breakfast. Today however, the favor was returned as one of the guys baked omelets (he could not find a large frying pan). They turned out well in spite of our pan-less-ness.
Today I am feeling a strange energy. A charge, a buzzing, an angst. I interpret it as a desire to practice – maybe I am accurately discerning it and maybe I am just stuck in an inner story. I don’t know. But it is present nonetheless.
When we arrived and throughout the first ten days, the Mountain Laurels were just resplendent – blooming everywhere. We were in a garden on top of the mountain, attending precious teachings.
The words, “Paying Attention” came up over and over again in our all-male retreat house. In fact I bet they were mentioned several times a day. Slowing down and paying attention – it can save you from tragedy and carelessness. Yep yep.
I did some practice and, on top of the buzzing energy I was feeling previously, afterward it was tough to come down off my natural high. Ugh.